friday, 18- wow, hmm, els farewell was quite ok, cause i came late, so it's rather hard for me to mix with my frens... then saw ah wan pulak... quite suprised... haha. I left quite early cause hui yee, known as ma lai mei ( means malay girl in eng but of course she's not a malay girl la) called me and ask me to go to ch2's basketball court to fetch her and diana to go have dinner together... I'll not talk more about the dinner part... haiz.... forget it... anyway, nothing special happened. After that, i fetched diana, chua, and hui yee home. when i reached hui yee's house, i went into her house to go to the toilet... I really can't TAHAN!!!! when i came out, i saw hui leng, hui yee's sis, sleeping in her room. hui yee asked me to go disturb her. U know lo, i sure go de ma... hehe. She woke up and we started chatting... the topics were very interesting... Of course, i can't write it here la... too.... i don't know how to say... she really told me a lot of things... she also told me to keep away from a few person... just like wat xue qi told me last time... i'm trying though... hehe... really la. lastly, if i have a sis like hui yee, all my blood vessel will definately break and will have a sudden stoke man! she hor, make me so speechless sometimes but she really is a positive thinking girl and that's good. Hui leng, u don't have worry so much le... haha U should actually worry for yourself now man....

haiz... My emo is up and down recently... not many ppl know cause i really don wanna let many ppl know... let me express myself this way, all trees need water in order to survive. But there are these few trees that prefer to have this kind of special water... but only one tree can get this water. This water has the power to choose which tree it wants to give itself to. Finally, water chosen a tree... but later, water found out that this particular tree does not appreciate it. Of course, there are many other trees that want to have this special water... Pity water is left aside by this tree, but sometimes this tree still wants to have this water again and later this tree will leave it aside, AGAIN... Here comes another tree that wish to have this water. Water knew it but it can't bear to leave that selfish tree who does not appreciate water... This poor new tree just have to wait, wait, and wait for it's turn to come... How long will it be? but this new tree tries very hard to obtain this water... Gambate! new tree! -The End- do you all understand this story, you must look at it in another perspective in order to understand the whole thing... hehe...

hmm... today i've wasted my PA lecture again, like everyone else... to listen to my friend's problems... She told me a lot of things about her friendship with her ex-school mates... I really understand how she feels cause when you are in a different class or even study at somewhere else, you may not have the chance to communicate with your friends from your ex-school, and this causes you and the others to drift far apart. From what i heard from many other ppl, we teenagers usually found our "best friend" during pre-U life... But is this true for everyone? I'm not sure about it... but for me, it's partially true... Not that i will forget my ex-school mates, you all will always have a place in my heart, but it is because i found two friends that can really listen patiently to me, especially those 'problems' i face recently, they have the same thought as mine, understand more about me and how i feel, and most importantly we love Sports!!!! Thx man! i hope you all can treat me as your best friend too! Eh, who 'terasa' that means it's you! hahahaha.... Hey! recently i have became many ppl's counselor... No matter what theme it is, love or friendship. I always try my best to help them... I have a msg for wan jun that is: don't be bothered by your past, just look at your future and go straight on without looking back and live happily. You still have us with you. We will always be by your side o! I will lend you my shoulder when you wanna cry... So don't be too sad o! Jia you!

Last Saturday, i went to Qian Ru's hse for the sketch prac... It was really fun. Her aunty keep taking pic here and there... Oh ya, her mom also prepared fried mee hoon and red bean soup for us... those food were really delicious, although they were not delicacies, just normal food that we always eat... hehe... After the sketch prac, i went to Wall St. for supper with my another gang, who are Ah Man, Chua, xiao feng feng and their friens which i don't know in the beginning... A bit boring actually, cause i don't know most of them lor... Anyway, i just wanna fill my stomach... Then we went to a place where most of the ppl said it is not a proper place to go... hehe, we played snooker actually... I know, I know, it's "bad" place... I go because i was really curious about this game. Hmm... not bad wor, now i know one more sport... cool! Maybe next time i'll go to a proper place to play pool... Sadly, i went back at 12 and got scolded, a bit only, by my parents, cause they know no matter who i mix with i just won't turn bad and not easily influenced by others... practically there are no boundaries for me... whoa! No lar, i was just exagerating... of course, i'm still under my parents control till i turn 21....

I really had a lot fun during the BSMM farewell party for the seniors... but when i came back, i suddenly thought of the things that xue qi told me during PA lecture. I'm sorry that i did not concentrate during the teacher's class but i'm really not in the mood to listen to any lectures at that time... I really need to talk to someone, someone that i can tell everything to, and can express my feelings... so i went to xue qi. But usually wan jun will be there with us too, that day was exceptional lar... I told her lots of stuff, and those almost make me cry... but luckily i did not... I really feel sad cause i'm still figuring out who i really am??? which road should i choose. I'm lucky to have my friends that always pull me back to the right path although there are some that makes me confuse... I found out that I actually have to be a 'double sided' person in order to mix with different kinds/group of ppl... The other part of me will appear when i go out with them... while when i go to sch, i'm back to normal... This occurs to many ppl of course, i think... All of them are my friends, i definately won't be so choosy in making more friends... No matter who they are, they are still friends... I will not allienate them... to xue qi: i will not be influenced so easily, although i can't promise you that but for now i know i won't... =P "I am cute! Good looking! and of course pretty! like xue qi said, everyone is pretty and perfectly made by God! woots!!!!!